Friends

I know I probably shouldn't be rationalising so much when I decide who I should be friends with, but how can I not be when the only thing I feel is being used around some "friends". If they are using me, at least let me rationalise and think of how I can benefit from being "friends" with them.

I now know why R does not like to have friends from class. At least, those high school friends I have are still friends with me even though there is absolutely NOTHING I can offer to them except maybe company (and maybe the ocassional feedbacks for CVs and cover letters). This sort of friendship is increasingly harder to get.

I am so sorry I moved to DP when I knew you guys wanted to get some help for Power and Control. But really, if you could at least make me feel that you liked me MORE than just for those tutoring, maybe I would have helped. Unfortunately, I am not J, I am not desperate for friendships. And how dare some of you guys said "I didn't really ask J that much for communications. I learnt them by myself"". I think you guys should just screw yourself. At least, show some sort of appreciation for all those time he spent attending to your questions. He spent a WHOLE day when there was only THREE days to study for that exam. He is smart, and nice and there is a hell lot more reasons to like him then just to help you get that C- you need so badly.

Expectations

I am about to crack under the pressure.

One thing I like about doing this degree is the group projects. The randomly assigned ones are even better, only because we all get to know one another really well.

When this year's over, we'd prolly not keep in touch. But it was great while it lasted. As much as I hate this degree and the stress we get, I enjoy the company of all my friends.

And if you've been prying on my facebook photos, just to let you know, there aren't only asians doing engineering. We are a mixed bunch, but we've all only gotten closer this year. Hanging out with different people feels a lot greater. Diversity rocks!

BBQ

Yesterday we had an awesome BBQ party at Maggie's awesome house. It's got a proper pool, a jacuzzi, and 5 acres of well landscaped land for a backyard. But it was soooo hard to find!! We got lost for a good 30mins looking for her house!! Partly because the road to her house has been sealed and we all had old maps. Note to self: check google maps! Daniel went all the way to Ponsonby because Maggie hadn't mention the suburb her house was at in her text ...

Overall, it was an awesome party. It wasn't an overly crowded one so everyone got to know each other.

Now, it's back to the books and researching. Man, I really really can't wait to get out of uni and get a proper job!

Uni is so different when you want A+ instead of just getting a pass. A pass is always easy, but after that, I can't imagine how hard it is to get a job!

I'm an ultra boring person

Mid sem break in 2days time. I've planned a total of ONE day to do other stuff. And that day, I've decided I'm going to go do some voluntary house-building. It will be fun too, but it's prolly not what most 21year olds will call FUN.

I'm like an ultra geek. I think it's not long before all the invitations to have fun will stop, because I just haven't been turning up. I hate rejected invitations, but I can't help not to :(

It's really annoying. It's a struggle between achieving and still having fun. To be honest, achieving means a lot more to me than having fun does.

I guess, part of this is because I have come to realise, how different we can all be simply because some of us have worked harder than others. Last week, my friend Angela, asked me to edit her CV and cover letter. And I felt sorry for her. We started off pretty much the same. We went to the same high school, and graduated with mediocre grades. But from her sheer lack of hard work after that, she's falling very far behind. And, to be honest, it never feels good to see people who started off where you are, miles ahead of you later on in life. It's not jealously. Merely, a feeling of failure, and the age old question "Could have I done more IF I've worked harder?"

I guess, I really don't mind not having a life for awhile. Even if I don't get where I'd like to, at least I've tried.

Busy Bee

Gosh! This EPICS project is going to a be a lot more time consuming than I thought! My software background is close to none. But if we do get this project done, it will definitely be a great achievement! And we'd definitely get to learn HEAPS. Doing this project would be like doing a crash course in Software Engineering.

For some weird reason, after my internship at Arc, I've developed a liking for all things software. And that is why I have chosen to embark on this crazy hard software project which I know NOTHING about.

Alongside, I'd have to do my 4th year project! The fourth year project we got is sponsored by Fisher and Paykel Healthcare. I don't think I like my 4th year project. I'm not the biggest fan of power electronics, and the fact that it is a sponsored project means we would have to a great job :(

I wonder if it's such a good to do two year long projects concurrently. It's turning out to be quite a bad idea :S

Good thing, it's only ONE more year before I become FREE again :D Yay! Can't wait for the end of the year. I'm going to work SO hard this year just to make sure that all my projects are successful!

A series of unfortunate events

I am now safely back in Auckland. I arrived on Saturday. There was a whole heap of drama on our way back here!

Firstly, my friend had crashed his car the Thursday before we were due to come back.

Secondly, my friend had locked his car key in the car. That was at 3pm on Friday. Someone at my company had suggested "you could ask my neighbour whose friend stole my car three weeks ago!".

And finally *thank God!* his car battery went flat while we stopped at the side of the road near Taupo for a nap and he had forgotten to turn off the head lights. That, is another $140! And the crazy weather made it worse.

Anyways, uni has started. It's good to meet up with E12 and many other friends. And I've decided I would be participating in EPICS and doing the software development for seismic assessment of Auckland buildings project. I've also decided to join Habitat. But looking at the weather, we might not be able to do anything tomorrow. Hopefully, uni would be a whole heap of fun this year.

Harmony Korine

I think I was like Harmony Korine in David Letterman's interview, just now when I was with my boss and this guy called Gary. Damn man. What a bad start. I bet if I had a proper interview instead of a phone one, it would have been just like that.